Doing double-duty on SNL this weekend (Dec. 11), Billie Eilish returned to the SNL as musical guest and host.

 

 

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Billie may have seemed cool as a cucumber, but the truth is, she was nervous as hell, “SNL, whoosh, it was the most crazy s–t ever… Saturday was, like, you know, one of the best days of my life, it was so much fun and so amazing and surreal and ridiculous.  It was f—ing nuts… it’s literally alien. I mean I cried every single day of the week, no joke at all,” she said earlier today during a Zoom call with Howard Stern.

 

 

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When Howard asked Billie ‘if her tears were a result of nervousness,’ Billie shares, “That’s not my world, so I don’t know what the f–k I’m doing.  I feel like I am terrible, like I suck.  I was scared. It’s SNL, these amazingly talented actors surrounding a table where somehow I’m the main course for this show that I didn’t feel qualified for.”

 

 

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Billie was so nervous, she told Howard how she ‘lost her lunch,’ plenty of times, “Threw up on the plane coming here, had crazy s—s when I got here like you would not believe.  That’s not a usual thing.  I’ve had stomach aches all week, I’ve been anxious and nervous… just because that’s not my world and I’m petrified of people thinking that I suck.”

 

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In the end, Billie reminded herself that given the opportunity to host and perform on SNL is ‘an insane honour,’ “The reason I was having these breakdowns through the week was because I realized that this was the thing I was terrified of doing and now I’m doing it.”

 

 

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Check out every single Billie x SNL moment below.

 

 

 

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Watch as Billie performs ‘Male Fantasy’ and ‘Happier Than Ever’ on SNL.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YfDy6sdWRR4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bdeJ8v0z64w

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